GGAD通信集——三十五只猫头鹰 第6章 第五只猫头鹰

August 4th, 1952

Dear Gellert,

亲爱的盖勒特，

I know it would be better for me to wait for you to contact me. I'm afraid I'm at quite a disadvantage—Nurmengard is rather out of range for Legilimency. I can only guess at the best way to approach you now.

我知道等你先开口或许才是更好的选择，但恐怕我现在的情况有些糟糕——纽蒙迦德已经超出了摄神取念的范围，现在我只有通过猜测来接近你了。

I remember your sulks, in those weeks we spent together. The way you'd leave abruptly if offended, cut yourself off, radiate darkness, come back a few hours later as if nothing was wrong. Hours have turned into months, I suppose? Time in isolation can stretch so, and I have experienced it only briefly, compared to you. And I do not say this to mock you. I found even your sulks intriguing—your wild flights of emotion were part of your charm.

在我们一同度过的几周里，我还记得你生闷气的样子。一旦感受到冒犯，你就会立刻离开，将自己与世隔绝，浑身散发着戾气，再在几个小时后装作什么也没发生过一样回来。我想，也许现在几个小时开始变成几个月了？孤寂的时光总显得格外漫长，比起你，我经历这一切还是太少了。但这并不意味着我是在嘲讽你，我甚至发现了你生闷气时迷人的样子——潇洒奔放的情绪是你魅力的一部分。

And I know it would be better for me to leave you to it, but I cannot bring myself to simply let you be. It is one of my failings, I suppose, the tendency to over-stretch myself and meddle. And now, were we face to face, I suppose you would snap at me for mock humility and leave...

我知道我最好还是任你留在其中，但我做不到。我想，这是我的过错，总是多管闲事、干预太多。但假如现在，我们面对面站在一起，我想你一定会嘲弄我的故作谦虚并且就此离去……

I come begging back to you, yes. Not as a famous wizard, not as a Hogwarts Professor, not as anything in which I might have pride. Merely as a man, for that is all we are in the end. You once called this old man friend. And you wrote me seeking, I can only imagine, simple correspondence. I would like that very much. And I speak in plain honesty, and you have every right to be angry with me.

是的，我恳求你。不是作为著名巫师，也不是霍格沃兹的教授，一同抛开那些曾经让我自豪的名头。仅仅只是作为一个人，在经历过我们所有的一切之后，你还曾称呼过这个老家伙为朋友。你写信向我寻求，于此我只敢想象——简单的书信往来。我希望还能继续保留它。最后，再一次向你真诚解释，你永远有权力对我生气。

I do not hate you. Could you bring yourself to believe that, to judge me fairly for it? Could you bring yourself not to hate me?

我真的不恨你。你能不能就让自己相信它，在这件事上还算公正地评判我？还有……你也能一样做到不恨我吗？

Regards,

附上诚挚的问候，

注：

1.“It is one of my failings, I suppose, the tendency to over-stretch myself and meddle.”（我想，这是我的过错，总是多管闲事、干预太多。）译完之后再回过头来修订，发现作者太太居然从这里开始就埋伏笔了。后面AD提起自己对哈利的惭愧时也说过类似的话。

2.“I would like that very much.”一句原译为“我非常乐意。”我感觉这样放在两个句子中间有点奇怪，就直接翻译成了邓多多的潜台词，邓教肯定还是想和格皇继续通信的对吧（吃瓜